I know better.
I know nothing, and I am useless.
So don’t throw words at me insinuating that
I am knowledgeable.
I know the truth.
Because at the end of each day
I have nothing to contribute to my patients
And I’m not going to dwell on the lie that
I can make a difference in their well-being
Because who am I kidding?
I’m just a med student.
The patient appreciates my effort
I am still reminded of the fact that
With each suture thrown or dosage drawn
I slow down the resident and the attending
Regardless of whether
I try my best
It’s hard to believe that
I’m here to learn and grow
Nothing will change the fact that
I think of what lies ahead in the wards as a hindrance
Each morning when
I ask myself
What am I doing here?
(It’s so easy to think a certain way when you’re feeling DOWN.
But don’t forget those days when things are looking UP.
How you read it is all a matter of perspective.)
Poetry Thursdays is a weekly newsletter that highlights poems by medical students and physicians. This initiative is led by Slavena Salve Nissan at Icahn School of Medicine at Mount Sinai. If you are interested in contributing, please contact Slavena.